When I was four years old my Grandmother
sat me down next to her, and had me draw
a
bunny on the white backing of a panty hose
package. For nearly four years afterward,
she
and I regularly sat down and drew bunnies,
ducks, chickens, and whatever else she
could manage on the spot.
Over the years, and on into school I continued
to draw, much to the chagrin of both
my
parents as well as many of my teachers.
There were the odd few who encouraged
my developing talent, and this nurturing
got me out of many a detention, and into
the Gym with the cheerleaders, who often
assisted me in creating the banners
and signs for games, pep rallies, and dances.
After High School, I continued to draw whenever
the opportunity presented itself. I drew
on napkins in restaurants, on business cards,
on anything that had a shred of
white
on it.
I joined the Navy in 1989, and was fortunate
enough to be homeported out of Yokosuka,
Japan, aboard the USS Midway where I worked
the Flight Deck of the Arresting Gear.
"Committed to Excellence: Bust Ass or
Haul Ass!"
I've seen Africa, Japan, The Phillipines,
Australia, Hawaii, Hong Kong, Singapore,
Abu
Dhabi, Diego Garcia, Bahrain, Thailand, &
Korea. Over 100,000 miles by sea.
I left drawings everywhere I went.
I turned thirty-seven on July 27th, 2002
and I've finally realized (after two failed
marraiges,
countless jobs, and drifting back and forth
accross the U.S.) a very elusive truth:
Sure this sounds melodramatic; but I had
to travel around the world three times, lose
everything twice, and love wrongly before
I saw what everyone else had seen for a
great many years: that I didn't belong wherever
I was.
Now of course there's the whole idea of making
the most out of any situation, and
the cream rising to the top, and all that,
but y'know: I've come to realize that no
matter how much you put into a thing, if
you can't love it (read: own it), you're
buying into the lie. The lie that says, "Fall
in line, and just do it, because
that's what's expected of you."
I say, " Make clear your intent, focus
the mind, invoke the will, and take one step
forward."
Little can oppose a clearly focused mind
once the will is invoked.
So that's it in a nutshell. I hope you enjoy
viewing the works here as much as I have
enjoyed creating them. The road was long,
and oftimes the going rough, but the
journey was well worth it.
Oh, as for my grandmother, she turned seventy-six
this year.
She still has that bunny.
-Paul-
Oh, there is nudity on this site; so I advise those
less than 18 years of age to go elsewhere.
